Woke up, but didn't get going till about 2:30 this afternoon. I went to America's Tire and got a new tire. It was under warranty, so it didn't cost me anything. I bought the warranty on the new tire, so I spent $13.00. Cheap, I'm so happy.
I went to Foodmaxx yesterday to get some groceries and I saw B there. He was getting stuff to go camping with Chris and Danny up at Mammoth Pools. Guess he'll be coming home on Sunday. He didn't tell me anything about this trip, wonder if he ever would have if I hadn't run into him.
Now, I am at home just on the computer. All caught up on my DS and MDJ. Worked on Quickbooks and got that balanced to my checkbook. I don't have any plans for the rest of the day, just to check in on my support groups and facebook every now and then. My mood today is pretty darned good. Hope it continues.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
7/30/10
Well, I had a blow out this morning on my way to work. I called B and he called dad. Dad came and changed it. I still made it to work early. So, now I have to buy a new tire. Should buy 2. Don't think I can afford it though.
My mood today is good, except for feeling anxious this morning over the blowout. Ly is not here, so the chatter is down. Actually, there are a lot of people not here, so it's fairly quiet. I think I will go by foodmaxx on my way home and pick some necessities up.
Tomorrow will probably be a lazy day for me. I will like that for sure. I really need to get my car in to get the oil changed plus look for a new tire of course. I hope they aren't too expensive. I need to save my money for my procedure in September.
My mood today is good, except for feeling anxious this morning over the blowout. Ly is not here, so the chatter is down. Actually, there are a lot of people not here, so it's fairly quiet. I think I will go by foodmaxx on my way home and pick some necessities up.
Tomorrow will probably be a lazy day for me. I will like that for sure. I really need to get my car in to get the oil changed plus look for a new tire of course. I hope they aren't too expensive. I need to save my money for my procedure in September.
7/29/10
My mood today is good for the most part, but irritable this afternoon. Ly and Paige have been talking and it's messing with my concentration. I have been busy today and yesterday. This talking is getting on my nerves.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
7/28/10
Well, my mood today was good part of the day, then very irritable at work. I was busy which was good, but the talking going on in the office was really getting to me and made my concentrating really suck.
All I did today when I got home was hop on the computer and visit my support sites and facebook. I meant to go to the grocery store but I didn't. I also picked up my prescription that was ready at CVS.
I saw my new psychologist yesterday and she is nice. We went over my life and my boyfriend issues. We didn't really accomplish much but talk for the first session about small things. I hope to receive help from her and find my issues and solve them. I guess I don't really have any when I sit in there and try to think of things. I guess I need to write some down and bring them in with me. I hope tomorrow is a better day.
All I did today when I got home was hop on the computer and visit my support sites and facebook. I meant to go to the grocery store but I didn't. I also picked up my prescription that was ready at CVS.
I saw my new psychologist yesterday and she is nice. We went over my life and my boyfriend issues. We didn't really accomplish much but talk for the first session about small things. I hope to receive help from her and find my issues and solve them. I guess I don't really have any when I sit in there and try to think of things. I guess I need to write some down and bring them in with me. I hope tomorrow is a better day.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
7/26/10
My mood today is good. Work was busy and made the day go by fast. When I got home, I just got on the computer and relaxed. Didn't have anywhere to go or anything to do. B called me this evening and I talked to him a bit. Nat also called me and she talked forever. She tends to talk too much. Bed by 9:30.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
7/25/10
Well, today my mood is good. I didn't get anything accomplished though. I did take a shower today which is good. I've been on my support groups and facebook all day just piddling around. I love my support groups. It really gives me something to do.
Tomorrow it's back to work, but I don't mind. I like my job. I am so lucky to have a job. I'm spoiled where I work too. We get food, drinks, have a gym, and the best Christmas parties ever! I really love it there.
Never did call the people I was going to. Maybe during the week I'll do that. I just didn't feel like talking to anyone. I did talk to Christian through facebook IM. Didn't even talk or text B at all and him me. Guess we are liking our time alone.
I'm going to ask Dr. O about Topamax. The Deplin is too expensive for me to buy. Topamax will curb my appetite too. I need to lose some weight. I over eat all of the time and I've gained back the weight I lost last year. I think it's from the Abilify, but I don't want to go off of it because it works for me, so I will ask about the Topamax. I sure hope tomorrow goes good. I want a good day.
Tomorrow it's back to work, but I don't mind. I like my job. I am so lucky to have a job. I'm spoiled where I work too. We get food, drinks, have a gym, and the best Christmas parties ever! I really love it there.
Never did call the people I was going to. Maybe during the week I'll do that. I just didn't feel like talking to anyone. I did talk to Christian through facebook IM. Didn't even talk or text B at all and him me. Guess we are liking our time alone.
I'm going to ask Dr. O about Topamax. The Deplin is too expensive for me to buy. Topamax will curb my appetite too. I need to lose some weight. I over eat all of the time and I've gained back the weight I lost last year. I think it's from the Abilify, but I don't want to go off of it because it works for me, so I will ask about the Topamax. I sure hope tomorrow goes good. I want a good day.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
7/24/10
Saturday has arrived and I'm bored off my ass. I've been on my support groups, but they are very slow. I restored my computer to the factory settings last night because there was too much stuff on it and it was running too slow. I actually did it myself. I'm proud of myself.
It's 1:30 pm and I still haven't showered. It's a lazy day for me. I need to clean up the apartment, maybe I'll do that, because I'm so bored. I plan on getting a haircut tomorrow, it's been a month since I got one.
So, that's about it for today. I sure hope things liven up on the support groups and on facebook so I have something to do. I don't like to be bored at all. I still need to clean up the mess that Christian left behind. I'm also adjusting to being alone again. I will do that pretty quickly though I think. My mood today is good so far.
It's 1:30 pm and I still haven't showered. It's a lazy day for me. I need to clean up the apartment, maybe I'll do that, because I'm so bored. I plan on getting a haircut tomorrow, it's been a month since I got one.
So, that's about it for today. I sure hope things liven up on the support groups and on facebook so I have something to do. I don't like to be bored at all. I still need to clean up the mess that Christian left behind. I'm also adjusting to being alone again. I will do that pretty quickly though I think. My mood today is good so far.
Friday, July 23, 2010
7/23/10
It's Friday, and I'm very happy about this. I have no plans, but I like that idea. I will sit around and do nothing all weekend. I do have to call a friend to get in touch with her, but probably won't do anything. I love my computer and I will be on there as well.
My mood today is grumpy. I don't like my mood at all. I wish it would go away. It affects me at work because everything irritates me. I feel sorry for people when I am like this.
I ran PN Transport reports this morning and applied off the amounts, so I'm not too busy now. I'm pretty caught up on support groups. I love them because I am helping people on there. We'll see how my day progresses. I hope for the best.
My mood today is grumpy. I don't like my mood at all. I wish it would go away. It affects me at work because everything irritates me. I feel sorry for people when I am like this.
I ran PN Transport reports this morning and applied off the amounts, so I'm not too busy now. I'm pretty caught up on support groups. I love them because I am helping people on there. We'll see how my day progresses. I hope for the best.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
7/22/10
Mood today is good with irritability. Seems like it's always like that lately. Maybe there is something more we can do about the irritability through medication.
I'm starting to adjust to Christian not being here anymore. Back into the groove of things by myself again. He'll be back in a year. He has left quite a mess though, so I need to clean that up. I'm all caught up on my support groups pretty much. I really like them.
Work is going well, kind of busy with PN Transport entries. Tomorrow FM Trucking entries. I took the FM home with me to organize them. I am also on the internet while at work checking my email and support sites. I'm hoping this good mood continues.
I'm starting to adjust to Christian not being here anymore. Back into the groove of things by myself again. He'll be back in a year. He has left quite a mess though, so I need to clean that up. I'm all caught up on my support groups pretty much. I really like them.
Work is going well, kind of busy with PN Transport entries. Tomorrow FM Trucking entries. I took the FM home with me to organize them. I am also on the internet while at work checking my email and support sites. I'm hoping this good mood continues.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
7/21/10
My mood today was good, but irritable at times. The main times I get irritable is when I'm answering phones and when an irritating person comes in contact with me. It was loud in the office today, so I put kleenex in my good ear so it didn't seem too loud.
Christian left for home yesterday. He got home safely and I'm sure his dad was kissing all over him. He's like a woman and I can't believe I was ever married to him. Anyways, when I got home, I was kind of lonely and sad. I've been used to Christian being there. Getting him food, entertaining him, cleaning up after him. It's just weird to have it all disappear in one day.
Feel a little bit that way today also. I know it will get better in time, it always does. So, I'm home, bored, and sitting on the computer. It's just what I do everyday. I am on support sites for bipolar disorder. I love them, they give me something to do and I actually help people. That is a good feeling. My psychiatrist thinks it's very good.
I got a return call from a psychologist this evening. She scheduled a meeting on Tuesday at 6:30 pm. I think this one will be good since she works evenings. She seems nice enough. I am looking for a psychologist to deal with my bipolar, my relationships, and the fact that I don't remember a lot of my childhood. It really bothers me that I can't remember. Well, I'm outta here. I'll try to write tomorrow.
Christian left for home yesterday. He got home safely and I'm sure his dad was kissing all over him. He's like a woman and I can't believe I was ever married to him. Anyways, when I got home, I was kind of lonely and sad. I've been used to Christian being there. Getting him food, entertaining him, cleaning up after him. It's just weird to have it all disappear in one day.
Feel a little bit that way today also. I know it will get better in time, it always does. So, I'm home, bored, and sitting on the computer. It's just what I do everyday. I am on support sites for bipolar disorder. I love them, they give me something to do and I actually help people. That is a good feeling. My psychiatrist thinks it's very good.
I got a return call from a psychologist this evening. She scheduled a meeting on Tuesday at 6:30 pm. I think this one will be good since she works evenings. She seems nice enough. I am looking for a psychologist to deal with my bipolar, my relationships, and the fact that I don't remember a lot of my childhood. It really bothers me that I can't remember. Well, I'm outta here. I'll try to write tomorrow.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
7/20/10
Well, I got Christian up this morning at 6:30. he got up pretty easily. He went into the living room so that he would wake up. I got everything ready and Christian looked around to see if he forgot something. I took the bag out to the car and then we were ready to hit the road.
Stopped at the liquor store and got Christian some donuts and chips for the plane ride. Then headed to the airport. We got in pretty fast. I had brought the laptop with me, so Christian was on that the whole time till it was time to board. Then he was gone. I waited till the plane was taking off then headed to work. I got there around 10:15.
Work went well, kind of boring, but well. My feelings today are good, but kind of sad since Christian is gone. Lonely, I'll have to get used to this again. I think he had a good time while he was here. They called me at work when he arrived in Boise and he sounded good.
I'm home now and just playing on the computer like I always do. I think I'll go to bed earlier tonight because I'm a little worn out. Work again tomorrow, but it's already Wednesday. I am stressing about bills like usual. That reminds me, I need to balance my checkbook. Well, that's it for now.
Stopped at the liquor store and got Christian some donuts and chips for the plane ride. Then headed to the airport. We got in pretty fast. I had brought the laptop with me, so Christian was on that the whole time till it was time to board. Then he was gone. I waited till the plane was taking off then headed to work. I got there around 10:15.
Work went well, kind of boring, but well. My feelings today are good, but kind of sad since Christian is gone. Lonely, I'll have to get used to this again. I think he had a good time while he was here. They called me at work when he arrived in Boise and he sounded good.
I'm home now and just playing on the computer like I always do. I think I'll go to bed earlier tonight because I'm a little worn out. Work again tomorrow, but it's already Wednesday. I am stressing about bills like usual. That reminds me, I need to balance my checkbook. Well, that's it for now.
7/19/10
I've taken the day off of work today to pack up Christian's stuff for the airport tomorrow. We didn't do a whole lot besides that. We got most of it packed up and ready to go for tomorrow. My mood today is good. Little bit overwhelmed, but not too bad really.
I get frustrated when Christian stays up so late. He sleeps all day. He must go to bed early tonight to be able to wake up early. I pray that he does and there are no troubles in getting him up.
I get frustrated when Christian stays up so late. He sleeps all day. He must go to bed early tonight to be able to wake up early. I pray that he does and there are no troubles in getting him up.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
7/17/10
Today is a boring day. Nothing to do & Christian is asleep. He stayed up all night again, so he'll probably do the same thing tonight. We have his birthday party tomorrow at Angel's house. Should be fun I hope. Dad, Nat, Fallon, Julie, Zoe, Tajia, Mariah, Tristan, Kaylee, Angel, and Jason will all be there. Amy, Sophia, and Selena may or may not show up. I don't think that Adriel and Cassandra will show up, but you never know. It's Cassandra's birthday tomorrow and she will be 16 years old.
I'm going to be getting out of the house soon to pick up a prescription and return a movie. My mood today is blah. I'm not depressed and not happy. Bored is the main problem I'm having today. Tried calling Julie, but she never answers her phone. Left a message at Julie and Amy's house. Will see if they call me back. I'm trying to get a head count of all that is going to be at the party.
I'm taking Monday off from work to get Christian's bags together for the trip home. It's also our last day together, so I thought I'd spend some time with him. Mary said she'd relieve Ingrid's breaks for me. I will be late to work on Tuesday because Christian catches his plane at 9:30 AM. We have to get there by 7:30 AM. I will take my laptop to kill the time. Christian will probably sleep until the plane pulls in.
I'm finding benefit from my online support groups. I seem to help a lot of people and when I post about something I get a lot of support. I like one more than the other because it doesn't have such stupid subjects on posts. They actually refer to Bipolar disorder. Going to help kill the stigma somehow. Someday there won't be one.
I'm going to be getting out of the house soon to pick up a prescription and return a movie. My mood today is blah. I'm not depressed and not happy. Bored is the main problem I'm having today. Tried calling Julie, but she never answers her phone. Left a message at Julie and Amy's house. Will see if they call me back. I'm trying to get a head count of all that is going to be at the party.
I'm taking Monday off from work to get Christian's bags together for the trip home. It's also our last day together, so I thought I'd spend some time with him. Mary said she'd relieve Ingrid's breaks for me. I will be late to work on Tuesday because Christian catches his plane at 9:30 AM. We have to get there by 7:30 AM. I will take my laptop to kill the time. Christian will probably sleep until the plane pulls in.
I'm finding benefit from my online support groups. I seem to help a lot of people and when I post about something I get a lot of support. I like one more than the other because it doesn't have such stupid subjects on posts. They actually refer to Bipolar disorder. Going to help kill the stigma somehow. Someday there won't be one.
Friday, July 16, 2010
7/15/10
Mood today is overwhelmed with irritability. I don't feel any depression or hopelessness today. Work went well and have a few errands to run, but am pretty calm about life right now.
7/16/10
Well, today I feel bored and a little bit overwhelmed. There isn't any depression so that is a positive. My irritability is at bay for the moment. Generally feeling pretty good.
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