Friday, December 31, 2010

12/31/10

I got home from work last night and hopped on my computer, but only made it until about 9:45 pm. I had planned to stay up later, but couldn't make it. I like to stay up late on nights that I don't have to work the next day. Guess since I woke up so early, I was tired. I ended waking up at noon today. Got something like 14 hours of sleep. I guess I needed it or I wouldn't have slept it. That is a long time though.


When I got up of course I got on the computer and went to MDJ and read and commented on the discussions. There were a lot of them. That took me probably a couple of hours. Last night I posted some statistics about bipolar and got some comments on it. They were all positive too. I like it when that happens. People actually pay attention to my bipolar posts sometimes. I think more people actually do, they just don't comment. A lot of people are too ashamed to admit they have bipolar. I bet some of my friends on facebook do have it that I grew up with. I just don't know it because they choose to hide it. That's okay though. That is their choice. I just choose to be open with my illness and to try to educate people. 


Nat called me today and she talked to me for awhile earlier. Mainly about her trip to Amy's. She stayed the night and Amy didn't freak out on her. Nat is my oldest sister, and Amy is my sister younger than her, but older than me. She ended up calling me back this evening. She was drinking Cabernet tonight, so it sounded like she had a buzz. She put on her music, but I finally got her off the phone. I'm sure she will call back yet again close to midnight to say happy new year to me. I hope that she doesn't talk too long though. 


B called me and I will go over there more than likely on Sunday afternoon for a visit. I haven't seen him in like 2 1/2 months. He's my boyfriend, we just have that weird relationship. He's been missing me though, I can tell. We pretty much do our own thing. He plays World of Warcraft and I am on my bipolar support group all of the time. I will make an effort to spend more time with him though. Maybe that could be my resolution. 


I got some bipolar pamphlets in the mail yesterday. I got 5 for bipolar and a bunch for pediatric bipolar. It's educational I guess so I can hand out to people or put on billboards in laundromats and stuff like that. I am a member to a group called Pediatric Bipolar Awareness. It's a great group. It tries to raise money for advocating the cause of pediatric bipolar. It's a good cause in my opinion. It's hard to diagnose in children. The more people know about it the better. Knowledge is the best way to inform people. I try to read up on things and inform through facebook. I don't really have anywhere else to inform people. 


I think I will probably be up late tonight. I can feel it, but I will be kept busy on my support group. I have diaries to read and posts to reply to. I also have facebook to check in on. It's a new year at midnight and I hope 2011 is a lot better than 2010. I don't really have any resolutions. I never really do. The diet ones never get followed through with, so I never make those. I just want to be happy and help people. I guess that can be my resolution. Well, Happy New Year!!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

11/30/10

It's Thursday, but it's Friday for me. I'm pretty happy about that. I get to stay up late and sleep in tomorrow. I got up pretty early today. The alarm went off at 4:30 and I got up at 4:50. Took me a shower and got ready and got to work at 6:15. Marilyn and I were the only ones there for awhile and it was nice. It was freezing this morning though. Only 34 degrees.

I'm kind of taking it slow today at work because I have been slammed all week. I can do a lot on Monday since I don't have payroll to work on. Mark isn't going to be here though and I'm going to have to take all orders though. That's going to make me a little bit busier. I'll probably be spending a lot of time in the molasses office doing that stuff.

Been feeling pretty good, but when I answer the phones on the receptionist's breaks and lunch I get pretty damn irritated with the ring of the phone. The number of times it rings too. I'm trying to get something done while I'm up there and the damn phone keeps ringing. It's quite annoying. Other than that my mood has been pretty good.  I like it when it's good and I've been very lucky to have been stable for a year so far. A lot of people don't get that so soon after they are diagnosed.

MDJ is pretty much caught up. They are starting to post again I see, so I will get that caught up. I've taken a liking to the new significant others bipolar group. They are supposed to be better than the other one and they welcome bipolar people in there with them. They like to get views from both ends of the spectrum. I really love the site, it's very good and it's also very rewarding to me.

I am supposed to go over to Nat's this weekend sometime. She wants to start a facebook, but wants it to be totally private. So private that when someone searches for her, her name does not come up. I told her I'd do my best. She fought for a long time against having one because she didn't want to open up a can of worms. She didn't want to get in touch with old friends. She figures she could only add family and close friends and deny the other people if they find out she has one. So, I guess we are going to set her up with one this weekend.

There are two girls at work that talk nonstop all day long. It really gets on my nerves. I don't know how they get any work done. When other people need help they don't offer to help either. They just carry on with their bad selves. Sometimes I have to plug my ears with kleenex just to do my work.

After work I think I will just go home and veg out and get on my computer. I get paid tomorrow, so this is a good thing. I get to pay bills. Woo hoo! Yeah right! As soon as I get the money, it's basically gone. That's my life though. I don't have anyone to help me. I live alone. I still need to call TJMaxx and get that second charge back on my card that they charged me for that night I bought stuff from them. That pisses me off. They better not give me any shit either. Well, till later, see ya!

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

12/29/10

Woke up today late. I think it was like 7:00. That is way late for me to be getting up. I rushed around and got ready then left around 7:40 and hit the road. I ran into some traffic on the way because there was an accident, but the accident wasn't the one that was holding everyone up, it was the gawkers that was. People just can't drive by. They have to slow down and check everything out. Annoying!

I wasn't too late though getting to work. I got there at 8:05. I was busy all day. I worked on my payroll. It filled my whole day because I didn't get a chance to organize them yesterday because I was so busy doing the molasses stuff. So, I just basically did that today. I wasn't rushing though because I am tired of rushing this week. I've been doing that everyday. It's been giving me a headache. I can't be stressing myself out. I don't want to have a bipolar episode, so I will keep myself healthy.

After work, I went to CVS and dropped off a prescription to be filled and waited for it since I had 4 other ones to pick up. I browsed the store. It was pretty boring since it took like a half an hour for them to do my prescription. I bought a back scratcher though that I found while I was browsing. I've been needing one of those. Finally, my name was called and I went to get all of my prescriptions. With it all together it was about $120.00. Too much money!!! I gotta do what I gotta do though. Came home after that, got my tea, and of course am on my internet.

Tomorrow is my Friday because it's New Year's Eve on Friday. I get the day off from work. I'm happy about this. I get to relax. I am supposed to go over to my sister's this weekend one day and help her set up a facebook. She wants it as private as it can be, so I'm going to try to make it that way. She refused to get on it for the longest time. Now though she wants to. She goes back and forth with it. She wants to now so she can monitor her daughter more than anything. So, that is one thing that I will be doing this weekend. Hopefully will get my hair cut too. 

I finally got to talk to my friend from MDJ on chat. He was MIA for awhile. Guess he had some things to do. It was nice to chat with him. I think him and his wife are getting along better now, so that is excellent. I try to help him with that by giving him encouraging words and listening to him. We pretty much just bullshit though and make each other laugh. I'm not much of a chatter. I don't really have many people to chat with though actually. I guess I would chat more if I had some people to chat with. 

Well, guess this is it for me. I'm just heading to MDJ to check on journals and posts and see what's going on there. I have to take my medications and then will probably go to bed at a decent hour tonight and hopefully wake up early tomorrow. No more of this waking up late shit. It's pissing me off. I like to get to work early so I can relax for a bit before I go to work. 

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

12/28/10

Tuesday is here and there are two more days to the workweek. Busy week for me since we aren't here on Friday. I've got payroll tomorrow and Thelma isn't going to have one driver to me until the morning. At least I have all the other drivers I can get organized and ready to enter into the computer tomorrow. I may have to work overtime. 


Didn't get to work early today. I thought about it, but I had a gynecologist appointment at 8:00 this morning and didn't want to drive all the way to work, to the appointment, then back to work. Seemed pointless to me and wear and tear on my car for no reason when I can just go in late. So, I just went in late. Got there around 10:00. I had to get labs done too that's why it took so damn long. Plus I had to wait 45 minutes to get in to see the doctor. A pain in my ass. I hate to wait. 


Whew, been very busy on the molasses stuff. Some of it I didn't understand on the barges we receive in and sell out, so I had to call Emily, the one I'm taking over for. She walked me through it, but not very thoroughly. I now have a headache because I have been working on that stuff for so long. I had to have a coworker give the receptionist a break because I was so busy. I usually give the receptionist her breaks and lunch on top of what all I do too. So, just a busy day. Tomorrow will be too since I have payroll to do plus the molasses stuff to do. Oh well, at least I have a job.


Tonight I'm going to go home and veg out. I'm waiting on one prescription to be filled, then I will go get them all. It's going to cost me $110.00 for 4 of them. I just got prescribed Rezerem and that one is going to cost me $40.00 a month! Yikes. It's for sleep. So, in all, I pay $120.00 a month for my prescriptions with insurance. That will go up though because my insurance plan is changing. The generics are going from $10.00 to $15.00 and the brand name from $25.00 to $30.00. That's another yikes. Oh, the world is so revolving around money. I don't like it one bit. I don't have a lot of it that't why. 


I've got to try and get to work early tomorrow so I can make a dent in all of my work. This is just piling up on me. I'm getting overwhelmed. Of course I was receptionist the last two days and that really screwed me up because I couldn't do my regular job but bits and pieces. I really needed to do some major stuff, but couldn't do it from the receptionist's desk. I guess I'll just have to grin and bear it for now. Hopefully I will get caught up here soon. 


I'm going to try and get a credit at TJMaxx. I was in there the other night and they double charged my card. I saw this on my account when I checked it online. Damn people! Now I have to go in there and get them to credit the amount back onto my card. I hate this when people screw up. It's not like I have money just to throw around. Hopefully it goes smooth and I can get it taken care of easily. 


Went to TJMaxx after work and told them about the double charge and they told me to call the 1-800 number and talk to them. I guess they have a lot of people that were charged numerous times. Like 3 or 4 times. I bet those people are pissed off! So, I came home after getting gas with no credit to my card. Bummer. They better be quick about it though. It's not right that just because of their glitch I get charged twice. I called the pharmacy and all of my prescriptions will be done tomorrow, so I can go and pick them up. I like getting them all at once. The only one I get at a different time is my Topamax which is filled in the middle of the month rather than the end of the month. 

Monday, December 27, 2010

12/27/10

I tell you, I just can't win these days. Ingrid is out again. I guess she called and said she wanted to take another day off, so I am the receptionist again today. I don't have time for this. One of the reasons I don't like being up front for her is because I am chained to the desk meaning it's hard to leave 5 feet from the desk without the phone ringing. When I print my invoices I have to run down the hallway, grab them, run back and hope no one has called in that time that I have been gone.

I've been busy today. I did some work for molasses, but still have a lot to do. I also, since being up front today had to fold and stuff invoices and checks while of course, answering the phones. The mail is a killer, going through it and distributing it. Not my favorite things to do. I only have a half an hour to go though, so it's almost over. It's going to be really busy because it's the end of the month and everything has to be in billing and payable wise.

I need to call the girl on maternity leave about a couple of things that aren't working for me on transferring of molasses, so hopefully she hasn't gone into labor yet. The codes she gave me aren't working, so hopefully she has a solution to my problem. Such a learning experience trying to learn something new. Next week I will be really busy because my merchandiser will be gone and I have to enter all orders on top of my work plus my payroll. Should be quite an interesting week.

This morning I got up early. I woke up at 3:30, 4:30, 5:00, and finally got up at 5:30. Don't know why I kept waking up, but I guess I was wanting to. I dragged my butt up and got ready and got to work at 6:20 this morning. Early. I love it when I get to work early. It relaxes me and gets me going for the day. I was very happy. Didn't like the fog though.

After work, I should go by TJMaxx and show them my bank statement and get a charge refunded. I went there last night and they double charged me on the items that I bought. I will have to go all the way home though and get the receipt. Dang. Oh well. It's not like I have money to give away to the stores or anything. Well, better get going to get ready to get out of here.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

12/26/10

Well, Christmas is over and it's time to start the New Year's events. I don't have any plans at the moment. My friend Michael is playing at a local bar, but am weary about going. There are a lot of cops out that night and a lot of drunks out too. I would really like to see him play though. He is a very dear friend of mine. This will have to take some thinking on my part to really decide if I want to deal with all that goes on on this night. If I don't go there, I will just stay home and avoid all of that stuff.


Today is a lazy day. It's 2:00 PM and I haven't even showered yet. I guess I better get on that. I know it will make me feel better, more refreshed. I'll even put some makeup on. I want to go get some hair product and then am supposed to go to my boyfriend's house. I don't really feel like it though. I would much rather just stay at home where it is warm and comfortable. I've been here for three days not even leaving the house so far. It's been really nice. 


My sister Nat called this morning and said she had a nice time at her Aunt's yesterday so that is good. The sister, Angel, that I was going to go to yesterday said they had a nice time too. Well, I had a nice time at home myself. I stayed up until 3:00 AM just on the computer and organizing my file cabinet a little bit. That task is going to take some time to do. I need to get to doing it though because the new year is upon us and that means new filing year. I try my best to keep it up every year. So far I've been successful. 


It's back to work tomorrow, but I don't mind. I love my job and I am so thankful that I have on in this economy. A raise would be nice, but in time I hope that I get one. With all the extra work you would think that I would get one, but I guess it doesn't work that way. Oh well, I think I'm appreciated where I work anyway. Busy workweek ahead of me with the short week. I am looking forward to another three day weekend though. It will be really nice to have again. Do nothing weekends are fantastic. 


MDJ is a little bit boring today because of the holiday I think. Everyone is with their families and not posting much on the site. Maybe it will pick up later on. I just find myself bored when nothing is going on on that site because it's like a second home for me. I love to help people and it gives me such a warm and fuzzy feeling when I do help someone. I have a big heart and love to spread the love. 


I signed up on a website to become a pen pal to a soldier. I wonder how it works. I wonder if I will become a pen pal to many soldiers. I don't want to become overwhelmed though. I think it's neat that they have that. They get lonely out there fighting for our freedom. I would also like to send a package of things they need. Stuff like razors, eye drops, chocolate, etc. It would give me a good feeling. Companionship though, they need because they don't get a lot of that out there. Maybe they don't have family to write to or their family just doesn't communicate with them. It's sad that some don't have any letters to read. I think it's great when people pen pal a soldier.  Well, I will write a little more later on. 

12/25/10

Well, it's Christmas. Nothing going on today. I was going to go to my sister's for dinner, but decided not to with the rain coming down. It's an hours drive and didn't want to drive it in the dark coming home, so I just stayed home. It was very relaxing to do I must say. I slept in, not a worry in the world. Jumped on the computer of course and came to MDJ and caught up on discussions and journals. Facebook was hopping with Christmas cheer. 


I don't have a New Year's resolution yet. I'm very bad at keeping them, so I just might not make one this year. I commend people for following through with theirs. It's just so hard to keep the task at hand for me. I get sidetracked and lose my place then don't get back to where I was. 


My mood today was good. Of course, I wasn't around any people. Sometimes people irritate me. On Friday the receptionist was gone, so I was the receptionist. I did her job plus mine. What irritates me is the ring of the phone. Well that and the fact that I have to answer it. I survived the day though and got all of my work done. I'm a great employee. I didn't have to be the receptionist. We could have gotten a temp, but then I'm having to train her. I also have to come up and do the mail because she doesn't know where to put it and distribute the weight certificates that print out from the printer. So I would have had to keep going up there anyways. It's just best that I did it. 


Tomorrow is Sunday and I will probably sleep in again late. For some reason lately I have been doing that. It's felt wonderful though. I have plans to go see my boyfriend. I haven't seen him in a long time. We have a weird relationship. We hardly ever see each other. He does his own thing and I do my own thing. Anyways, we decided to spend some time together tomorrow. Just hang out at his house for awhile. He better stay off of that damn World of Warcraft too! He is obsessed with it. 


I think I will do a little bit of shopping tomorrow too for things I need around the house like hair stuff. LOL. I categorize that as things I need around the house. Right along with dishwasher detergent. I need that too! Maybe treat myself to a couple pair of pants. I did buy me some Uggs a couple of weeks ago and I love them. They are so warm and comfortable. They will also last me a long time. They better for $150.00. They are great though and I'm so glad that I bought them. 


I have a friend that I talk to online off of MDJ, but haven't talked to since Monday. I hope everything is alright. He's done this before. Him and his wife are having a hard time and I've been trying to help him out with this. I think when he's really trying with his wife he goes off the radar. It's a good thing, but then I'm missing a friend. Oh well, hope that is what is happening. At least that is a good cause. I want him to work it out so bad with her. They deserve to be happy. 


Next week is another short week at work because of New Year's. I get Friday off again which is nice, but it makes it a hectic week for me. I have to have my payroll done a day early and rush my molasses billing. Since I've been doing the new job on top of my payroll I have been busier. I like the new job, I just hope I don't do a bad job at it. I don't feel I was trained properly on it, but I am doing the best I can at it. I haven't had any complaints yet. 


It's 12:15 AM here in California and I'm pretty awake. I don't know how late I will stay up, but hopefully not too late. Last Saturday I stayed up all night. By 5:00 PM I was beat and went to sleep. I am very bored though. There is nothing going on at MDJ nor on Facebook. I guess I could check out DS and see if there are any journals to read and reply on there. I don't go to the boards there because I can't relate to them. Only on MDJ do I do that. I love MDJ. It's my second home. I love to help people and I get a great feeling from it when I do. Well, that's it for tonight. Off to find something to do!!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

12/7/10

Mood today: Good. Yesterday went by pretty quick for me. Emily wasn't there, so I billed out some loads, did some transfer loads, and and an inventory transfer. Well, come to find out, we weren't supposed to do any of that yet because of the end of the year. Spent the morning yesterday fixing the inventory numbers. She should have instant messaged me to not do anything out of liquids. Oh well, over and done with. So, after work, I went home and just logged onto my computer. No one to chat with. My friend Kelly that I usually chat with hasn't been online in like a week. I wonder what he's been up to.

Today was a pretty fast day too. Did little jobs here and there. Checked MDJ online every now and then. I still couldn't do any billing. Now it's just sitting there piling up. It's going to be a lot of billing now if I can do it tomorrow. Thursday I have PN payroll to do. It's a lot to do in one day. Came home and talked to Nat on the phone for a couple of hours. On the computer as usual. Oh, I talked to my new friend on chat this morning. He is very nice and we seem to get along pretty good conversation wise. I always welcome new friends. He is nice to chat to.

Tomorrow is Hump day, so the week is half way through. We have our standard Diccico's lunch that the company provides every Wednesday. It's really nice of our bosses to provide this to us. We are very spoiled at our job. We even have a gym with a shower at work. We have snacks, sodas, and water provided for us too. I am so lucky that I work there and I have a job. My company Christmas party is coming up on Saturday and I am getting excited. I plan on having on having some fun. I will have some drinks and then probably head up to my room after watching some gambling. I don't gamble so I will watch my co-workers. We are having the party at an Indian gaming casino. Our parties are really fun. Well, that's it for tonight.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

12/5/10

Mood today: Good. The week went by fast for me. I guess that's a good thing, better than dragging ass all week. Friday didn't though, but it never does. It's just because it's Friday. When I left on Friday I stopped by Foodmaxx on the way home and got some stuff I needed. I didn't really want to go too many places once I got home. I was supposed to go to a football game with one of my sisters, but didn't feel like it, so I stayed home. I was on the computer until 2:00 am. Headed to bed kind of tired, but I could have stayed up later.

Saturday I woke up at a reasonable hour. I think it was around 9:00 am. I was tired all day though and I can't figure it out. I was on the computer like I always am and then my sister Angel called me to say she and Jason and baby Skyler were coming down and they wanted to take me out for my birthday lunch. So, we called my other sister and we all met at Toledos. We had lunch, it was good. I had an apple martini to go with my burrito. Got a slight buzz, but one more would have been better. Hehe. After that, I went home to use the restroom and went to get my hair cut. Then back home I went.

My friend Michael was playing at the local bar Audie's last night and I wanted to go see him. I usually go to all of his shows. I was so tired. I laid down at 5:30 and set my alarm for 7:30, but I guess I slept through it because I didn't wake up until 7:30 this morning. I'm sorry that I missed his show. I really wanted to go to it. I have no clue why I would need 14 hours of sleep. That is outrageous. It cut a big chunk out of my weekend and that makes me mad. Oh well, I can't go back and do it over.

Today I got up because someone was instant messaging me on the computer. It was a friend from Hawaii. He is stationed there until the 20th of December. Then he is coming to California somewhere. He doesn't know where yet. He is nice, I have lots of online buddies that I talk to nowadays. I spend so much time on the computer that I've made a lot of friends. They are all from around the United States far away and some from different countries. It's weird how you can communicate with these people from all over.