Mood today: Good. Well, today is very boring to me. Woke up, standard tea and a smoke, computer. Shower, dressed, then went to do laundry. Finished that in about two hours and came home to do nothing.
Just on my support groups and email for hours and of course facebook. I even checked out myspace which I haven't been on in months. I think it's changed around a little. My home page isn't green anymore. It looks different to me. Standard white and blue. Boring. My profile page is the same though, so that is good.
Didn't talk to anyone today. Don't know what b is up to. He called me on Friday night when I was at the show. I called him back when I got home, but he didn't answer so I just left him a message and sent him a text. He hardly ever gets in touch with me. Oh well, life goes on I guess.
I wonder how my sisters are doing. I should call them to see what they are up to. Amy isn't in a good spot with me lately because of the way she acted with Nat. Angel is doing good I believe, she's got little Skyler to deal with. Julie is always drama with her loser husband. Dad I need to call to see what he's up to. I really need to visit him.
Tomorrow it's back to work for me. It will hopefully be a good week. It's payday on Tuesday, so that's always good. Something to look forward to. I get 12 days on this check. It's pretty much gone to bills and my procedure I'm having done. I just hope I can get all of my bills paid. Will probably try to go to sleep early tonight.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
8/28/10
Mood today: Good. I went to the show/magazine promotion last night and had a real nice time. Michael played and he did a great show as usual. He also has been playing with Patrick Contreras. He is a really good violinist. I picked up a magazine that they made, my friend Michael is part of that too. It turned out really well. It looks very professional. I guess they are putting them out everywhere even outside the USA? That's what I hear anyways.
When I got home, I was so tired. I haven't stayed up that late in a long time. I think I got home somewhere between 12:00 and 12:30. I made some tea, but didn't ever get it out of the microwave because I fell asleep on my bed. Shame to wast a cup of tea. Oh well, sleep is more important.
I woke up late today, like 9:30. I had my standard tea and a cigarette and then got on my computer and checked email. Then I did my daily MDJ & DS thing and answered posts. I've been kind of bored today. Nothing else to do but check in on the computer. I don't have the money to go out and do anything. It's already after 6:00. The time sure does fly.
Nat was supposed to call me. Maybe I will give her a call. The problem is, she stays on the phone forever. I don't mind really because she is my sister, but after awhile, it gets tiring. I have no plans but to do laundry tomorrow. I have to because I am running out of clean clothes. I didn't do any last week. Oh, I fit into a pair of my little sized jeans last night. That is a good feeling. I had a bowl of cereal today. I'm not hungry though now. It filled me up pretty good. I'm trying to fit into my clothes.
When I got home, I was so tired. I haven't stayed up that late in a long time. I think I got home somewhere between 12:00 and 12:30. I made some tea, but didn't ever get it out of the microwave because I fell asleep on my bed. Shame to wast a cup of tea. Oh well, sleep is more important.
I woke up late today, like 9:30. I had my standard tea and a cigarette and then got on my computer and checked email. Then I did my daily MDJ & DS thing and answered posts. I've been kind of bored today. Nothing else to do but check in on the computer. I don't have the money to go out and do anything. It's already after 6:00. The time sure does fly.
Nat was supposed to call me. Maybe I will give her a call. The problem is, she stays on the phone forever. I don't mind really because she is my sister, but after awhile, it gets tiring. I have no plans but to do laundry tomorrow. I have to because I am running out of clean clothes. I didn't do any last week. Oh, I fit into a pair of my little sized jeans last night. That is a good feeling. I had a bowl of cereal today. I'm not hungry though now. It filled me up pretty good. I'm trying to fit into my clothes.
8/27/10
Mood today: Good. Today is Christian's birthday. He is now 14 years old. He is growing up so fast. I can't believe it. Now he is a freshman, but his school in Idaho considers high school to be 10th through 12th grade. I guess he was having friends and family over for his birthday.
Work was good. Got the FM and PN reports and applying done. Sent FM to Tim, but it didn't go through. He has a new email address I guess since all of the changes. I don't know what is going on with them. Maybe I'll get a call from him tomorrow or Sunday.
Tonight is Michael's show/magazine thing at the crossroads. I wonder if Nat is going to go with me. I am excited that I am going to get to see him. It's been a long time that I have gotten to see him. He's such a good friend and I hardly know him. We have a friendly connection I'd call it.
When I get home, I think I'll do a little bit of relaxing and then take a bath. Then I'll get dressed and ready to go. I need gas and money, so I'll have to stop for that on the way. It should be a fun time. Mainly because I get to get out of the house. I never do anything, so this will be nice. I try to make all of Michael's shows, but that's just not always possible.
Work was good. Got the FM and PN reports and applying done. Sent FM to Tim, but it didn't go through. He has a new email address I guess since all of the changes. I don't know what is going on with them. Maybe I'll get a call from him tomorrow or Sunday.
Tonight is Michael's show/magazine thing at the crossroads. I wonder if Nat is going to go with me. I am excited that I am going to get to see him. It's been a long time that I have gotten to see him. He's such a good friend and I hardly know him. We have a friendly connection I'd call it.
When I get home, I think I'll do a little bit of relaxing and then take a bath. Then I'll get dressed and ready to go. I need gas and money, so I'll have to stop for that on the way. It should be a fun time. Mainly because I get to get out of the house. I never do anything, so this will be nice. I try to make all of Michael's shows, but that's just not always possible.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
8/26/10
Today's mood: Frustrated again. Ingrid said she would be in about 12:00-1:00. She called around 12:00 and said shed be in in an hour. Then she called again and said she was stuck in traffic and said it wouldn't really be worth coming in, so I said to just go home. So I worked on my PN freight entries, plus all of the other stuff. Another exhausted day.
I'm home and did the same thing as yesterday. Got on MDJ and DS did posting and journals. Remembered to write in my blog. Didn't do it for two days. I guess I forgot. Anyways, I think I will get ready for bed and go to sleep.
I'm home and did the same thing as yesterday. Got on MDJ and DS did posting and journals. Remembered to write in my blog. Didn't do it for two days. I guess I forgot. Anyways, I think I will get ready for bed and go to sleep.
8/25/10
Mood today: Frustrated. Got to work early today. Ingrid is not here today. Her granddaughter is having surgery. I am up front doing the receptionist duties. I also had to enter all of the FM tags, my job. So, I had FM tags, folding, stuffing, mail, and sorting to do. Plus phones all day. The damn phones were busy all day long. I was exhausted after work.
When I got home I got on the computer and finished posting on MDJ and writing comments on journals on MDJ and DS and then went to bed.
When I got home I got on the computer and finished posting on MDJ and writing comments on journals on MDJ and DS and then went to bed.
Monday, August 23, 2010
8/23/10
Mood today: Good. I had a hard time getting up this morning for work, but did get up a little earlier than usual. This is a good sign. I got to work early and checked my email and posted on MDJ. At 8:00 I got to work on my work for the day.
I worked on my freight bill, got them paid. Finished last weeks fm entries. Started organizing PN freight tags. Filed the folders from last pay period FM and PN freight tags. It was a busy day. Of course I was on the internet too.
Went straight home after work. No spending money for me. I am poor, so if I go straight home, I don't spend any money. Now I am on the computer. It's almost 8:00 and I'm thinking about having some tea and just going to bed. B has not contacted me since dinner last night. I will send a text tonight and see if he responds. I don't know what is up with him lately on not getting back to me.
I worked on my freight bill, got them paid. Finished last weeks fm entries. Started organizing PN freight tags. Filed the folders from last pay period FM and PN freight tags. It was a busy day. Of course I was on the internet too.
Went straight home after work. No spending money for me. I am poor, so if I go straight home, I don't spend any money. Now I am on the computer. It's almost 8:00 and I'm thinking about having some tea and just going to bed. B has not contacted me since dinner last night. I will send a text tonight and see if he responds. I don't know what is up with him lately on not getting back to me.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
8/22/10
Mood today: Good. Woke up around 9:00 today. Took a shower and got on computer. About 4:00 I went to Foodmaxx and got gas. Then I met B at Cool Hand Luke's and we got some steaks. The appetizers were huge. I ate a little of my dinner but took most of it home.
Nat just called and and she is going on about Amy. She freaked out tonight on her. I think she has some mental problems. Maybe she is bipolar1. She snaps, could be a little psychotic. I have bipolar 2 which is a lot different in a sense.
It's after 9:00 and I need to be getting ready to go to bed. I have Nat on the phone though and she is upset about the blowout she had with Amy. Too bad that happened. I have to go back to work tomorrow, but I don't mind. When Thursday comes around though, I am ready for the weekend. I think I will hit the hay after Nat gets off the phone.
Nat just called and and she is going on about Amy. She freaked out tonight on her. I think she has some mental problems. Maybe she is bipolar1. She snaps, could be a little psychotic. I have bipolar 2 which is a lot different in a sense.
It's after 9:00 and I need to be getting ready to go to bed. I have Nat on the phone though and she is upset about the blowout she had with Amy. Too bad that happened. I have to go back to work tomorrow, but I don't mind. When Thursday comes around though, I am ready for the weekend. I think I will hit the hay after Nat gets off the phone.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
8/21/10
Mood today: Bored, but good. So, I woke up around 8:00 this morning. I always go to my computer and check the email. I had a lot of new threads and posts on MDJ and journals to read on DS, so that took me a couple of hours to get through those.
I cleaned the kitchen a little bit and ate some cereal for lunch. I've taken to reading Bipolar Disorder for Dummies and I read a little of that. Kind of boring to read because it's the basics. I would like to read more in depth on bipolar.
Tried to call Nat so I could go over and visit with Selena and Sophia, but she didn't answer, so I just stayed home. She probably took them up the hill home and is staying the night at Amy's or something. I know she wanted to visit her grandpa and will probably do that tomorrow.
I'm back on the computer obviously checking in on MDJ and DS. I'm still hella bored, but hopefully this will keep me entertained. Maybe I will chat with someone here. It was kind of hot today, but not too bad. I hardly went outside. Just to smoke. Football is on right now, but hopefully soon there will be something more entertaining on that I can watch. 48 hours should be on tonight and I like that show. Will try to go to bed early tonight.
I cleaned the kitchen a little bit and ate some cereal for lunch. I've taken to reading Bipolar Disorder for Dummies and I read a little of that. Kind of boring to read because it's the basics. I would like to read more in depth on bipolar.
Tried to call Nat so I could go over and visit with Selena and Sophia, but she didn't answer, so I just stayed home. She probably took them up the hill home and is staying the night at Amy's or something. I know she wanted to visit her grandpa and will probably do that tomorrow.
I'm back on the computer obviously checking in on MDJ and DS. I'm still hella bored, but hopefully this will keep me entertained. Maybe I will chat with someone here. It was kind of hot today, but not too bad. I hardly went outside. Just to smoke. Football is on right now, but hopefully soon there will be something more entertaining on that I can watch. 48 hours should be on tonight and I like that show. Will try to go to bed early tonight.
Friday, August 20, 2010
8/20/10
Today's mood: Good. Got to work early about 6:50 to check email and support groups. I printed out reports for the PN Transport and applied off the amounts. It was totally boring today. It's Friday that is why. Every Friday is boring and the day goes by slow. I was so happy that 5:00 happened.
I'm at home now on the computer again having my tea. I need to stop drinking so much tea. I put too much sugar in it, plus it stains teeth. I think this is my fourth cup today. I only had a piece of ice cream cake today and some almonds. It's Mark's birthday from work. He turned 60. He's feeling old.
Tonight I think I'll just hang out at the computer and watch some T.V.. I don't have any plans, no plans for the whole weekend really. Just to go by foodmaxx. That's not exciting at all. Maybe I'll chat with someone on MDJ or something. Smoke my cigarettes, etc. Nat will probably call. It's Friday night and she's probably having some wine and in the mood to talk to someone. I think I will try to go to bed early tonight to stay on a schedule.
I'm at home now on the computer again having my tea. I need to stop drinking so much tea. I put too much sugar in it, plus it stains teeth. I think this is my fourth cup today. I only had a piece of ice cream cake today and some almonds. It's Mark's birthday from work. He turned 60. He's feeling old.
Tonight I think I'll just hang out at the computer and watch some T.V.. I don't have any plans, no plans for the whole weekend really. Just to go by foodmaxx. That's not exciting at all. Maybe I'll chat with someone on MDJ or something. Smoke my cigarettes, etc. Nat will probably call. It's Friday night and she's probably having some wine and in the mood to talk to someone. I think I will try to go to bed early tonight to stay on a schedule.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
8/19/10
Mood today: Good. I got to work early around 7:00 this morning. Checked my email and support groups. I worked on FM Trucking today. Organized some, but input some due to Tim needing it done. Then he said he didn't need it done. Crazy guy. I was rushing for no reason. By the time 4:00 rolled around, I was ready to go home.
Came home after work. I haven't been going anywhere after work because I don't have a lot of money to spend, so I stick to home. I do need to visit Foodmaxx though. I will do that tomorrow or Saturday. I need water for my tea. I drink so much of it. It's better than coffee though.
Now I'm just on the computer like I usually am catching up on my support groups. They are fairly busy this afternoon. I think the Topamax is starting to work. It's a mood stabilizer, but it also has weight loss capabilities, so hopefully I will lose a little bit of weight. I gained 15 pounds in 2 months. That's a lot for me to gain. Well, I'm going to hit the hay around 8:30 tonight. I'm going to try my hardest to get up earlier tomorrow. I don't know why it's so hard for me to get up early when I go to bed so early. Anyways, I'm outta here.
Came home after work. I haven't been going anywhere after work because I don't have a lot of money to spend, so I stick to home. I do need to visit Foodmaxx though. I will do that tomorrow or Saturday. I need water for my tea. I drink so much of it. It's better than coffee though.
Now I'm just on the computer like I usually am catching up on my support groups. They are fairly busy this afternoon. I think the Topamax is starting to work. It's a mood stabilizer, but it also has weight loss capabilities, so hopefully I will lose a little bit of weight. I gained 15 pounds in 2 months. That's a lot for me to gain. Well, I'm going to hit the hay around 8:30 tonight. I'm going to try my hardest to get up earlier tomorrow. I don't know why it's so hard for me to get up early when I go to bed so early. Anyways, I'm outta here.
8/18/10
Mood today is good. Worked on PN Transport today. Entered all of the drivers tags. I also organized them before I entered them for easy entry. It was a fairly busy day. The day went by quickly.
Caught up on my support groups. Some people on there are pretty bad off. I can only do so much though. I am a very long distance away from most people on there. One just wants to die. She doesn't want to commit suicide, but she wants to die. I told her she has a purpose here and it's not her choice to make.
B hasn't contacted me since Saturday and that bothers me. I have called him and sent him texts. He finally posted something on facebook about his phone downloading an update and then taking a shit. So, I guess he gets a phone on Friday. We were supposed to go to dinner this week. He also has an infection on his foot. So it looks like we aren't going. I will have to call him tomorrow.
Came straight home after work. I am tired today. Did what I usually do, got on the computer. I am tired, and it's 8:15, so I am going to hit the hay in about 15.
Caught up on my support groups. Some people on there are pretty bad off. I can only do so much though. I am a very long distance away from most people on there. One just wants to die. She doesn't want to commit suicide, but she wants to die. I told her she has a purpose here and it's not her choice to make.
B hasn't contacted me since Saturday and that bothers me. I have called him and sent him texts. He finally posted something on facebook about his phone downloading an update and then taking a shit. So, I guess he gets a phone on Friday. We were supposed to go to dinner this week. He also has an infection on his foot. So it looks like we aren't going. I will have to call him tomorrow.
Came straight home after work. I am tired today. Did what I usually do, got on the computer. I am tired, and it's 8:15, so I am going to hit the hay in about 15.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
8/17/10
Mood today: Good with a little bit of irritability. Got to work early to check my emails and get on my support groups. Mary was gone yesterday, but she was back bright and early this morning. I guess she was sick.
I worked on organizing the PN tags for entry tomorrow. I also labeled the PN folders and filed them away in the boxes. I was pretty busy for the day. I believe I have all of the FM driver tags for Thursday so that is good.
After work I just came home and got on the computer. Nat called and she talked to me forever like she always does with me. I finally got her off around 7:30. I think I'm hitting the hay early tonight. It's only 8:15, but I'm tired.
I worked on organizing the PN tags for entry tomorrow. I also labeled the PN folders and filed them away in the boxes. I was pretty busy for the day. I believe I have all of the FM driver tags for Thursday so that is good.
After work I just came home and got on the computer. Nat called and she talked to me forever like she always does with me. I finally got her off around 7:30. I think I'm hitting the hay early tonight. It's only 8:15, but I'm tired.
Monday, August 16, 2010
8/16/10
Mood today: Good. Work went slow today. I didn't have a ton of stuff to do that is why. The rest of the week will be busy, so it's good that I got a break. Mark brought a rooster to work for Paige. It was in a cage all day clucking away outside in the shade. Kind of funny to me. Paige has a bunch of chickens and roosters at her house. Her husband has them there for eggs? Homemade chicken? I don't know.
On my way home I stopped and dropped off my prescription for Topamax and picked up a few things while I was there. Then just headed home. Nat called me and we talked for an hour and half. That girl can talk on and on if you let her. It's just about 8:30 and I think I will get ready for bed. I hope tomorrow goes a little bit faster.
On my way home I stopped and dropped off my prescription for Topamax and picked up a few things while I was there. Then just headed home. Nat called me and we talked for an hour and half. That girl can talk on and on if you let her. It's just about 8:30 and I think I will get ready for bed. I hope tomorrow goes a little bit faster.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
8/15/10
Mood is good today. No one around me to put me in a bad one. Woke up and took a shower. Then I headed to the laundromat around 11:30 this morning. While waiting I wrote in the car and I went and bought a hose and plunger at OSH.
After laundry I went to AT&T to discuss my internet connection. They told me to unplug my modem for about 5 minutes then replug it back in and see if that did anything. I called the 1-800 # too. They said my connection was fine. After I did the modem thing it did seem a little bit faster, so maybe that did the trick.
When I got home, is when I messed with the modem, then I got onto the computer and checked my emails and answered posts on MDJ and ds. Said my sarcastic status on facebook and chatted with Charise from MDJ. I got bored after awhile, I always seem to. I had a bowl of frosted mini wheats for lunch. I'm not hungry now since I ate them late.
My friend Michael was on T.V. the other day playing some of his songs and a couple of covers. He is very talented. He is playing on the 27th and I plan to go see him. It's a big night because a new magazine comes out and he is part of it. It's on our town, so it will be interesting to me. Plus it will get to be a great show and I get to see my good friend Michael. He means a lot to me and it will be so nice to see him.
After laundry I went to AT&T to discuss my internet connection. They told me to unplug my modem for about 5 minutes then replug it back in and see if that did anything. I called the 1-800 # too. They said my connection was fine. After I did the modem thing it did seem a little bit faster, so maybe that did the trick.
When I got home, is when I messed with the modem, then I got onto the computer and checked my emails and answered posts on MDJ and ds. Said my sarcastic status on facebook and chatted with Charise from MDJ. I got bored after awhile, I always seem to. I had a bowl of frosted mini wheats for lunch. I'm not hungry now since I ate them late.
My friend Michael was on T.V. the other day playing some of his songs and a couple of covers. He is very talented. He is playing on the 27th and I plan to go see him. It's a big night because a new magazine comes out and he is part of it. It's on our town, so it will be interesting to me. Plus it will get to be a great show and I get to see my good friend Michael. He means a lot to me and it will be so nice to see him.
8/14/10
My mood today was good, but really bored. I didn't do much today. I woke up and got on my computer. I'm kind of irritated because I upgraded my internet to the fastest speed and it seems to be the same speed as it's been all along to me. I'm going to have to call AT&T I think.
Nat called me and talked for about an hour. She has Amy's two youngest and they are staying the night with her. I really should have gone over to visit, but I just didn't feel like doing anything. I would have gotten stuck over there for a couple of hours if I had gone.
I watched a little bit of T.V., but was mostly on the internet. I never seem to tire of the internet. There is just so much to do on there. I have my support groups and facebook that I am always on and of course this blog that I try to keep up with. I think I'm going to try to sleep soon. I already took two naps an hour long each today. It's almost 10:30, so it really is time for bed!
Nat called me and talked for about an hour. She has Amy's two youngest and they are staying the night with her. I really should have gone over to visit, but I just didn't feel like doing anything. I would have gotten stuck over there for a couple of hours if I had gone.
I watched a little bit of T.V., but was mostly on the internet. I never seem to tire of the internet. There is just so much to do on there. I have my support groups and facebook that I am always on and of course this blog that I try to keep up with. I think I'm going to try to sleep soon. I already took two naps an hour long each today. It's almost 10:30, so it really is time for bed!
Friday, August 13, 2010
8/13/10
Mood today was good. Quiet day at work today. I wasn't as busy as I was earlier in the week. I had more time to get to MDJ and DS. Checked my email early. So many posts early in the morning from the night before. It's amazing. I ran the reports for PN and FM. Then I applied them off in BOS.
After work I got some cigarettes and came home. I have my prescription for Topamax that I need to fill. I figure I'll do that tomorrow. I hope that I will lose some weight on it since I gained on the Abilify. Gaining weight makes me depressed, so I want to nip it in the butt.
I haven't talked to B today. Maybe I'll call to see what he is up to. My sister Natalie didn't call me tonight. I'm surprised. She likes to get on the phone and talk, talk, talk. Sometimes I just say I have to go. I can only talk for so long. I need to call my other sisters and my dad.
I'm pretty bored right now. Not too much going on. Just on my computer checking things out. Of course I have my tea. I seem to drink a heck of a lot of it lately. It's so warm and sweet. I think I put too much sugar in it, but it tastes so good. Well, I think I'm heading to bed early. Pretty sad when it's a weekend.
After work I got some cigarettes and came home. I have my prescription for Topamax that I need to fill. I figure I'll do that tomorrow. I hope that I will lose some weight on it since I gained on the Abilify. Gaining weight makes me depressed, so I want to nip it in the butt.
I haven't talked to B today. Maybe I'll call to see what he is up to. My sister Natalie didn't call me tonight. I'm surprised. She likes to get on the phone and talk, talk, talk. Sometimes I just say I have to go. I can only talk for so long. I need to call my other sisters and my dad.
I'm pretty bored right now. Not too much going on. Just on my computer checking things out. Of course I have my tea. I seem to drink a heck of a lot of it lately. It's so warm and sweet. I think I put too much sugar in it, but it tastes so good. Well, I think I'm heading to bed early. Pretty sad when it's a weekend.
8/12/10
My mood today was good. I was super busy at work. I entered FM today and there were a lot of entries. That took up most of my day. I barely got to check my support groups at all. It was hot, but not too hot for me. I'm cold blooded.
I got to work at 6:00 this morning because I had a psychiatrist appointment this morning. I went to the appointment and we added Topamax to my medication list. It's so I can lose some weight. I've gained 15 pounds in the last 2 months and I think it's from the Abilify. After that, I went and got some gas and returned to work.
After work, I went and got some cigarettes and came home. Pretty boring. Didn't do anything but go to my computer and drink my tea like I usually do. My sister Nat called and we talked for a bit, but that was it. B sent me a text stating that he was addicted to WOW again, so he must be playing it for hours on end. Heading to bed at 8:30 tonight.
I got to work at 6:00 this morning because I had a psychiatrist appointment this morning. I went to the appointment and we added Topamax to my medication list. It's so I can lose some weight. I've gained 15 pounds in the last 2 months and I think it's from the Abilify. After that, I went and got some gas and returned to work.
After work, I went and got some cigarettes and came home. Pretty boring. Didn't do anything but go to my computer and drink my tea like I usually do. My sister Nat called and we talked for a bit, but that was it. B sent me a text stating that he was addicted to WOW again, so he must be playing it for hours on end. Heading to bed at 8:30 tonight.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
8/11/10
Mood today is good. I was busy at work. I worked on PN today, entering and it took most of my day up. I checked in on my email and support groups here and there, but couldn't reply much because I was so busy.
Just came home after work and hopped on the computer. My sister Natalie called and we chatted for awhile. My niece is a cheerleader at her high school and I can't believe how much it costs. It's unbelievable.
I think I'll head in early tonight I'm getting to work around 6:00 in the morning because I have a psychiatrist appointment and don't want to use any sick leave. This way I always have to think about the future!
Just came home after work and hopped on the computer. My sister Natalie called and we chatted for awhile. My niece is a cheerleader at her high school and I can't believe how much it costs. It's unbelievable.
I think I'll head in early tonight I'm getting to work around 6:00 in the morning because I have a psychiatrist appointment and don't want to use any sick leave. This way I always have to think about the future!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
8/10/10
My mood today was good. Work went well. I separated PN and got them ready to put into BOS tomorrow. I need to separate FM to put into BOS on Thursday. We had a meeting on freight around 3:20 this afternoon. It went okay, but there was a lot of butting heads. I had to give Ingrid her break at 4:00 because the meeting went so long.
After work I came home and hopped on the computer and made some tea. At 6:15 I left for my psychologist appointment. We had a good session. Got a lot of talking done on my relationship and she got me to realize a lot of stuff. I am going to think about all of this and make some decisions.
I'm going to try to hit the hay early tonight because I can't seem to get out of the bed early. I wake up, can't get out of bed, so I sleep longer. If I could just drag myself out of bed I would be alright. Hopefully tomorrow will be a day I can get up early. I have my psychiatrist appointment on Thursday and I'm going to mention Topamax. I want to take that because I could potentially lose some weight on it. I've gained 15 lbs since I have been on Abilify.
After work I came home and hopped on the computer and made some tea. At 6:15 I left for my psychologist appointment. We had a good session. Got a lot of talking done on my relationship and she got me to realize a lot of stuff. I am going to think about all of this and make some decisions.
I'm going to try to hit the hay early tonight because I can't seem to get out of the bed early. I wake up, can't get out of bed, so I sleep longer. If I could just drag myself out of bed I would be alright. Hopefully tomorrow will be a day I can get up early. I have my psychiatrist appointment on Thursday and I'm going to mention Topamax. I want to take that because I could potentially lose some weight on it. I've gained 15 lbs since I have been on Abilify.
Monday, August 9, 2010
8/9/10
My mood today was good. Work was great. Ingrid came back from her vacation. She did all of her work of course, so all I had to worry about was my work. That is a nice change from the hell week last week. I was so irritated and angry from all the extra work I had to do.
Came home after work and hopped on the computer of course just like I always do. It looks like B reinstated his facebook account. Wonder why he did that. He said he was hacked and didn't want it. Hmmm. Facebook to me isn't as fun as it used to be. I think MDJ is a lot better. That's one of my support groups.
Well, it's 8:30 now and I'm getting tired. Last night I got in bed around 9:00, but couldn't sleep. I think I actually got to sleep around 10:00. Better than 11:00. I had a hard time getting up this morning like I always do. I woke up okay, but didn't get up, so I fell back to sleep. Good thing for alarm clocks. I eventually woke up and got up.
Came home after work and hopped on the computer of course just like I always do. It looks like B reinstated his facebook account. Wonder why he did that. He said he was hacked and didn't want it. Hmmm. Facebook to me isn't as fun as it used to be. I think MDJ is a lot better. That's one of my support groups.
Well, it's 8:30 now and I'm getting tired. Last night I got in bed around 9:00, but couldn't sleep. I think I actually got to sleep around 10:00. Better than 11:00. I had a hard time getting up this morning like I always do. I woke up okay, but didn't get up, so I fell back to sleep. Good thing for alarm clocks. I eventually woke up and got up.
8/8/10
Today's mood is good. I went to the store today, to Foodmaxx and got some food and water. Didn't take long and I was right back home. So, I left the apartment a total of one time today. One time yesterday. Very lazy this weekend. I should have done laundry yesterday, but I didn't. I can do it one night this week if I have to.
Didn't talk to B since Thursday. Wonder what he did today. I meant to call Brandy today, but I didn't do that either. Mainly spent the day puttering around the house and on my support sites looking and posting. I love that MDJ. It's like my favorite place right now on the internet.
Started getting tired around 8:00, but I think I will go to bed around 9:00. I have to get up early in the morning for work. I have such a hard time getting up in the mornings. It's ridiculous. I fall back to sleep and then I'm late getting ready. I'm not late for work though, so that is good. I will enjoy Ingrid being back tomorrow. That was a rough week for me last week. It will be much better this coming week.
Didn't talk to B since Thursday. Wonder what he did today. I meant to call Brandy today, but I didn't do that either. Mainly spent the day puttering around the house and on my support sites looking and posting. I love that MDJ. It's like my favorite place right now on the internet.
Started getting tired around 8:00, but I think I will go to bed around 9:00. I have to get up early in the morning for work. I have such a hard time getting up in the mornings. It's ridiculous. I fall back to sleep and then I'm late getting ready. I'm not late for work though, so that is good. I will enjoy Ingrid being back tomorrow. That was a rough week for me last week. It will be much better this coming week.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
8/7/10
Today's mood was good. Woke up around 9:00 this morning. Had some tea, then sat down at the computer and logged onto my support groups and answered my emails. That took about an hour and half. Didn't do much of anything else.
Went to the store to buy some cigarettes in the afternoon and came home. I spend a lot of time on my computer. I love the internet! Yesterday I logged onto att.com and upgraded my internet to the fastest speed. Mine isn't fast enough for me.
Tomorrow brings laundry day, so that's what I will be doing. Today was David Westrick's wedding. I hope it went well and wasn't too hot in Hollister. JB was all alone outside and I hope they got home quickly to let him in. I worry about him all of the time, he's a pug and so cute and sweet. It's almost 10:00, so it's time to hit the hay. Early for a Saturday night.
Went to the store to buy some cigarettes in the afternoon and came home. I spend a lot of time on my computer. I love the internet! Yesterday I logged onto att.com and upgraded my internet to the fastest speed. Mine isn't fast enough for me.
Tomorrow brings laundry day, so that's what I will be doing. Today was David Westrick's wedding. I hope it went well and wasn't too hot in Hollister. JB was all alone outside and I hope they got home quickly to let him in. I worry about him all of the time, he's a pug and so cute and sweet. It's almost 10:00, so it's time to hit the hay. Early for a Saturday night.
8/6/10
Work today was good. I got PN Transport done in the morning an then worked on other things. I was more calm today and doing the extra work didn't bother me as much. I think the fact that it is Friday helped and knowing that Ingrid will be back on Monday did too.
I went to the library after work to drop off the book I got for Christian while he was here. It's like six days late, but oh well. I just hope no one was waiting on it for too long. After that I went to get gas. I was on E and was a little worried on the way home. I came home, logged on my computer, and made me some good ole tea like I usually do.
I think I made it until 9:30 on the computer then laid on the bed for awhile watching T.V. Finally got up an washed my face. I think I probably fell asleep around 9:30. So, my mood was good today. Oh and I started my period today, that could be the cause for all of my irritability this past week.
I went to the library after work to drop off the book I got for Christian while he was here. It's like six days late, but oh well. I just hope no one was waiting on it for too long. After that I went to get gas. I was on E and was a little worried on the way home. I came home, logged on my computer, and made me some good ole tea like I usually do.
I think I made it until 9:30 on the computer then laid on the bed for awhile watching T.V. Finally got up an washed my face. I think I probably fell asleep around 9:30. So, my mood was good today. Oh and I started my period today, that could be the cause for all of my irritability this past week.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
8/5/10
Today was an irritable day. Ingrid is back on Monday and I'm so happy. I keep having to do extra work because she is gone plus Ly and Paige are getting on my nerves. Ly was extra loud today. She was talking to Geoff across the room and it seems like they were yelling. I put kleenex in my good ear, but it didn't seem to help all that much.
I have to go through the morning mail, the mid morning mail, and the green bag. Yesterday, I folded statements did all the above and kept having to bring the temp envelopes and manila folders. Just a lot of getting up and down and not being able to get my work done. It's been very frustrating in the least.
I will be so happy on Monday when she gets back. She can do her own job and I can do mine. I have the payroll reports to run tomorrow and that's about it. Oh actually I have Mary's stuff to do too, but that's not much. I can maybe relax a little bit tomorrow.
So, my mood today was irritable. I don't know if it's hypo-mania or PMS or what. It's ugly though. I want it to go away. I will discuss this with Dr. O on the 12th when I see him next. I will have to write some things down to discuss with him. I need to also write down some things to discuss with the psychologist. I have an appointment with her on Tuesday night.
I have to go through the morning mail, the mid morning mail, and the green bag. Yesterday, I folded statements did all the above and kept having to bring the temp envelopes and manila folders. Just a lot of getting up and down and not being able to get my work done. It's been very frustrating in the least.
I will be so happy on Monday when she gets back. She can do her own job and I can do mine. I have the payroll reports to run tomorrow and that's about it. Oh actually I have Mary's stuff to do too, but that's not much. I can maybe relax a little bit tomorrow.
So, my mood today was irritable. I don't know if it's hypo-mania or PMS or what. It's ugly though. I want it to go away. I will discuss this with Dr. O on the 12th when I see him next. I will have to write some things down to discuss with him. I need to also write down some things to discuss with the psychologist. I have an appointment with her on Tuesday night.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
8/4/10
Well, my mood today was good part of the day, but towards the afternoon, I got irritated. The temp is here at the office since Ingrid is on vacation and I have to do all the mail. The P.O. Box mail and the physical mail. I also have to do the green bag. Had to fold statements. Had to bring Envelopes up both letter size then the manila.
I just got tired of getting up and down so many times. Having to walk back and forth, back and forth, over and over again. I will be glad when Ingrid comes back so she can do her own work. Two more days and I don't have to do two jobs, just mine. On top of that, I have Ly and Paige that sit across from me and talk all damn day. It's so irritating.
So my mood today was partly good, but mostly irritable. No depression though. I haven't had any depression in awhile. This is good, I hate depression. It's an awful feeling to be down in the dumps and not want to do anything. Well, I sure hope tomorrow is a better day.
I just got tired of getting up and down so many times. Having to walk back and forth, back and forth, over and over again. I will be glad when Ingrid comes back so she can do her own work. Two more days and I don't have to do two jobs, just mine. On top of that, I have Ly and Paige that sit across from me and talk all damn day. It's so irritating.
So my mood today was partly good, but mostly irritable. No depression though. I haven't had any depression in awhile. This is good, I hate depression. It's an awful feeling to be down in the dumps and not want to do anything. Well, I sure hope tomorrow is a better day.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
8/3/10
I got up late this morning. I didn't mean to, but I did. I just wanted to sleep and sleep. Didn't leave at the time I wanted to, but still got to work early. Day was long because we ran statements. Ingrid is on vacation and I can't wait till she gets back. I have to go through the mail when it comes in and the green bag. Ingrid usually does that. The temp doesn't know where to put those things, so I have to do it.
Just came home after work and hopped on the computer. Chatted with a couple people on MDJ, one of my support groups.
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My mood was good today even though Ly and Paige talked all day long. A couple of days ago I was very irritated with them because I could not concentrate and I was very busy at work. I was in a pissy mood.
I talked to Angel the other day and she's doing good. Baby Skyler is very fussy though and it's hard on her nerves. She is trying to get back to work, but there is no one to watch Skyler for her. He is three months old on the fifth. Time flies. I haven't talked to Julie since Christian's birthday party.
Tomorrow we are folding statements. I don't know if I will enter PN Transport or not. I may wait until Thursday to do that. I might be too busy to tomorrow. I am getting tired and it's only 8:30, but I think I will hit the hay, so nite nite!
Just came home after work and hopped on the computer. Chatted with a couple people on MDJ, one of my support groups.
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My mood was good today even though Ly and Paige talked all day long. A couple of days ago I was very irritated with them because I could not concentrate and I was very busy at work. I was in a pissy mood.
I talked to Angel the other day and she's doing good. Baby Skyler is very fussy though and it's hard on her nerves. She is trying to get back to work, but there is no one to watch Skyler for her. He is three months old on the fifth. Time flies. I haven't talked to Julie since Christian's birthday party.
Tomorrow we are folding statements. I don't know if I will enter PN Transport or not. I may wait until Thursday to do that. I might be too busy to tomorrow. I am getting tired and it's only 8:30, but I think I will hit the hay, so nite nite!
8/2/10
Work was good, no bad attitudes or anything. My mood today is good, so I'm glad for that. Just came home after work and played on the computer. Was in bed by 9:30. Uneventful day. We are running statements at work tomorrow.
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