Today is two of my sister's birthdays. They are 12 years apart. I better remember to call them both. Yesterday was my niece's birthday. She almost made it to the sisters birthday. I did call her last night. I'm usually pretty good at remembering, but sometimes I mess up.
I started school orientation on Monday the 12th. It's basically about navigating the website and learning what you can do on it. How to turn in assignments, how to use the discussion forum, how to use the library, things like that. It's all online. We are given quiz's about where to find certain links and so forth. It's interesting and I'm getting the hang of it. I have two more weeks of orientation, then I start school online in April.
I finally got something on Unemployment Insurance the other day. I am approved and that makes me happy. It's not much, but I'll have to make it work. I looked online and it said that I can't collect it while in school. I called my local Workforce Connection and asked them. They told me that you can, you just have to report that you are going to school and get it approved. I will be looking for a job still of course, but I still need some kind of income to live. I hope they don't give me any trouble with it. They did say that it could hold me up for a couple of weeks.
The job search is not going so well. I have tons of resume's out there and am not getting any calls. I apply on Craigslist a lot, but most of them are scams. I go to careerbuilder.com, monster.com, my local newspaper, Workforce Connection, etc. I think there are so many applicants applying for each job that I don't know if I have a chance. I hope that I can find something soon though. I don't want to be on unemployment for a long time. I want something that pays for my skills though. I can't live off of $8/hour. That's just not realistic.
My mood has been pretty good. Just a little depression which is situational. I feel loads better now that I know I get Unemployment Insurance though. I don't have to worry quite as much as I was worrying. I've been giving a lot of support on MDJ. I've had the time. They all think I will be a good counselor when I get out of school. That will be awhile still though.
I haven't seen B for over a month. We are going to have to have a talk because it's ridiculous. I talked to him last night. I said we need a date night. He said that was lame. So, I'm supposed to just never see him and live like I'm single when I'm not? He also told me that he's not into the whole boyfriend thing. This is why we need to have a talk. Why are we together then? I need to get this off my chest. It's more like a friendship than a relationship. I love him a lot and we will always be friends I hope. We've always said that we would continue to be friends if we did break up. I don't know what to do about the situation besides have a talk. We just always end up getting back together and I usually get hurt every time we do. It's caused me to build a wall around my heart so I don't get as hurt.
I've just been staying home and isolating. It's not healthy, I know that. I don't have the funds to go out and do anything though, so I stay at home. Every time I leave the flat, it's spending money unless I go to my sister's for dinner. I don't have many friends anymore. I really enjoy being by myself though, so it doesn't bother me much. I'm comfortable with myself and I rarely get lonely. Now though, I'm not working and I don't have any social communication with people besides family and my online friends. People don't understand me though and I have a hard time relating to people.
I've become somewhat bored at home a lot. I get bored when there isn't anything to do online. I spend so much time on the net. It's when I don't have discussions to answer on MDJ or there is no one to chat with online. I do have school work that I'm doing and when I actually start school I will probably not be bored. I am taking two classes at the same time every nine weeks. It's going to be a lot of hard work. I am excited though and nervous because it's been so long since I've been in school.
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