2/22/11

Well, I stayed up all night again last night. I don't know what my deal is lately. For some odd reason. I'm wanting to stay up all the time. I'm a night owl, but I've got to stop doing this staying up all night. It's going to start making me look old! LOL. I stayed on the computer last night on MDJ and DS answering posts and journal entries. Of course I had facebook too, but that was pretty boring during the wee hours of the night. 

I got to work at 6:15, just like I like to. Started working early because I have so much to do. I'm getting caught up slowly but surely. I wish I didn't have so much work though. It's grown so much since I took over that it's starting to overwhelm me. I just need to work a little faster I guess. As long as everyone doesn't pull me every which way, I'm okay. It's when everyone wants something from me at once is when it gets stressful. 

I called my bank and addressed the issue where they took that money out of my checking account out. What happened was my ex-husband deposited my check I wrote him for child support and he also deposited his paycheck. Well, they took out the check that I wrote to him and they also took out the amount of his paycheck out of my checking account. I was, what the fuck! Where the hell is all my money! I had chatted with BofA on Sunday and they told me that it would be credited within 5 days. Well, that's not good enough, so I called today. They credited it today thank God. I don't have thousands of dollars sitting around in my checking account. I'm poor just like everyone else is. I'm just glad it's resolved. 

So, tonight, I need to pay some bills. I would have paid them yesterday, but I couldn't because all of my money was not there because of the mix up where they took all that money out. I barely had enough to get gas in my car. I'm not looking forward to seeing it all disappear either. That's exactly what it's going to do though. 

I think I'm not going to fill this prescription on Lamictal. I'm stopping it soon and I have a whole bottle full at home. Why pay the $15.00 when I have some at home when I'm stopping it right? Maybe my face will clear up when I'm off of that stuff. I wonder if it was even helping me. I'm sure it was doing something. I just didn't really feel the effects of it. Soon we are going to wean off the Lexapro too, but I'm nervous about that one because I've always had trouble with depression and I think I will become depressed. He said I can go back on if I do become depressed, so that is good, but it's like I don't even want to try to go off of it. It's like I already know the outcome. I guess we'll see how it goes when the time comes.