9/29/12

Today is Saturday and I just can't get motivated. I have a lot to do, so I really need to get there. The neighbors are moving out. This is a surprise. They never said anything to me. I wonder why they are moving. I guess I will get some new neighbors in time. Wonder what they will be like. These neighbors have been here since I've been here. Probably awhile before I moved in. Interesting.

Went to the boyfriend's the other night and helped him with laundry and cleaning his room. I'm such a great girlfriend. I go out of my way for everyone though. I shouldn't because no one goes out of their way for me. One of my downfalls. I tend have people take advantage of my kindness. Will have to work on this. 

Nothing much is going on in my life. Just the usual. I get on the internet everyday and do my MDJ, email, and Facebook. I have school and I should be working on that right now. I think I will save it for later though. I just don't feel like doing it right now. Gary wants to go up to one of my sister's houses. Will see what day we will do that. 

My son is doing okay. His girlfriend has broken up with him. He is really sad. He even went to Texas this summer and spent it with her. Now he wishes he would have just come here for the summer since he hasn't seen me since last summer. He wants to come to visit for Christmas break. I told him that is fine as long as we can get the money to fly him there. It will be nice to see him if he comes. He is looking for a job right now. He needs his own money. 

I'm broke as broke can get. I just can't survive very well on what unemployment gives me. I don't think many people can. I get money that is pretty good, but I have a lot of bills. I live alone and don't have another income coming in, so it's all on me. I barely have any money left over from my check after bills are paid. It's scary. I don't even eat right because I don't have money. It sucks to live this way. 

I've been putting resumes out there and not getting any calls. I think I will have to go through temporary agencies soon. I have to make a certain amount of money though, so I don't know how they will react to that, but you have to survive on what you make. I will register at as many as I can and hopefully land a job somewhere. That would be nice to get to working again and having some extra money to have the things I need. 

I'm overweight and I need to be exercising. I just don't have the motivation these days. I wish I did. I am going to have to make myself because I have to get this weight off of me. It's not good for my heart and it just looks ugly. I miss my little body. I know I will get there though in time. I've done it many times in my life. I've just never been this heavy before. It's disturbing in my opinion.