9/7/12

I am so bored right now. Nothing is going on online and I don't have anything else to do. I'm at home tonight alone. I'm not used to being alone anymore since Gary. Guess that has a lot to do with it. I'm usually satisfied with the internet, but not when nothing is going on. MDJ is dead and so is Facebook. No one is posting anything on either site. 

I had a headache today that hurt pretty bad. I even took a nap, but it didn't help. I did take some Excedrin type pills and it went away. I also put on my glasses. I think I need to wear them more often. I will see if I get less headaches this way. Especially in front of the computer. I wonder if that is part of why my headache went away.

I haven't seen Gary all day long. It's weird because we usually see each other everyday. It's nice being in a relationship where you are wanted and cared for publicly. He loves me and it's a nice feeling to have. We keep each other good company too. We never run out of things to talk about and this is a good thing. 

My sister that lives close to me called tonight and talked for about an hour and half. She loves to talk on the phone, but she has been pretty good lately. Probably because I'm barely home to talk to these days. She finally did get off the phone. Said she would call me back, but didn't and I'm kind of glad. She is always telling me stuff that people post on Facebook. It doesn't really interest me though.

I have an appointment with EDD (my unemployment agency) on the 11th. I don't know what they will do or what it's about, but I hope it's not a bad thing. I think they may be checking on me to see if I've been looking for a job. Gosh, I'm always putting out resumes. It's insane how many I put out and never get a call for. It's discouraging to do all that work and not get a response. I hope soon I get a job that pays good though. I am barely making it on unemployment. It's really hard when you don't have much money after bills to make it. I pray I get a job soon, a good one. 

My mood has been good. I see the psychiatrist on the 13th and I'm going to suggest that we raise the Wellbutrin to 300mg so I don't have to take half of my night medication with it in the morning. I should be able to take my full prescription at night. I do that so I don't become depressed. If I don't, I get down. That is my way of compromising on making myself better and it works. I'm not sure what he will say about that since I've only seen him once so far. He's the clinic psychiatrist. He seems nice enough though, just really busy. There are a lot of people that go to the clinic.