Yesterday went by too fast! I ended up leaving the house to get some labret ball jewelry for my piercing. I keep losing the silver balls, so I went and bought 4 ball labrets. After that I went to Starbucks and then came home. I actually felt like getting out of the house for once. I was glad to get home though. I wasn’t able to get a haircut because my hairdresser left the salon early. Maybe this week or next weekend.
I watched 48 hours, love that show. That and Criminal Minds. I think I made it until 11:30, then I zonked out. I woke up around 8:00 this morning and took my medication, but fell back asleep till 10:30. I just have such a hard time getting up in the mornings. It’s frustrating. I want to feel refreshed and ready to start the day. Not groggy and hating getting up.
I got my clothes together and went to the laundromat and washed my clothes. Very boring time. I sit in the car and write usually about whatever, but today I couldn’t think of anything to write. My mind was blank. I was bored out of my mind. I walked over and got a caramel machiato to drink and smoked my cigarettes till it was time to dry and fold.
B went to his nephew’s go-cart race yesterday. He never invites me to go anywhere with him. I wonder why that is? He doesn’t even think about it. I think that is weird in my opinion. I talked to him a couple days ago, but have been comfortable at home. We have a ridiculously dysfunctional relationship that we like for the most part. I may or may not see him today. Depends on how I feel.
Tomorrow it’s back to work. I hope it’s less stressful than last week. Friday was a bitch of a day. My anxiety skyrocketed. I don’t see how Mary did that and her other work that she does. Guess she is used to it. She did it for 6 years. I’m just starting out so it’s reasonable for me to not understand it yet. I’ll get it down eventually.
I went down on my Abilify a little bit to 25mg. I think it is making me too sleepy. That I am taking too much of the medication in such a high dose. My psychiatrist was going to lower it anyways. I will see if that makes me less sleepy. I sure hope it does. I’m taking all this medication to keep myself awake and it doesn’t seem to help very much when it should. I will have to discuss this with my psychiatrist when I see him next. He may or may not be mad at me. We’ll see.
The rest of the day, I’ll just be on my computer. I should go get gas and milk though. Maybe I’ll do that. I just don’t really feel like leaving the house again anytime soon. I’m comfortable here on my computer answering posts and reading journals.
Some guy added me to one of my yahoo accounts that I share on MDJ. We chatted for awhile. Then he wanted me to be his online girlfriend. LOL. I don’t think so! Who asks that kind of question? I’ve never had someone do that. He must be high. He wanted to video chat and I said no. Then he wanted to get naked and have me watch. He finally stopped that gibberish and turned to talking to religion. I didn’t want to talk about religion, so he said okay. Finally he I told him I had to go. I don’t have time for that kind of stuff. There are weird people out there that you have to watch out for. Why can’t people just be nice and chat about normal day to day things? Sometime I will come across someone that does.
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