Wow, I haven't written in awhile. I've been so busy I guess and haven't really thought about it. I've got some depression, but it's situational, not chemical. I hate depression. It sucks the life right out of me. It reminds me of the past feelings I've had. It's a beast and needs to be killed.
My car started overheating, so I took it to the dealer. They said it was the thermostat. Next thing you know, the motor to the fan isn't working. They order the part and install that. Now, they've done this, the water pump was leaking. The last call I received was that they don't know what is going on with it. It should be running fine according to the diagnostic machine, but it's still overheating. Fuck me! This is not what I need right now.
I took my rental car back yesterday because I just can't afford to have it. My boyfriend is lending me his car now. It's very nice of him to do this. Hopefully it's only for a couple of more days. The rental car was $400.00 already. I don't even know where I'm at on the cost of the car. The last time I heard, it was at $500.00. I don't have a lot of money and I struggle to get by, so I hope it's not much more than that. This is so frustrating to me.
My mood has been good despite all of my problems except for my psychiatrist lowered my Abilify to half of what I was taking and became very agitated and irritable. He said to go back up to the regular dose. I've felt better since then, so that was my problem. I was getting really cranky at work with people.
Christian is going back to Idaho on the 13th of August. His school will start not too long after that. He is a sophmore this year. He is such a mess maker. His area is very dirty and we've cleaned it over and over. It keeps getting back to where it was. He's a lazy boy and is spoiled by his dad. He is lucky in that sense, but also it's damaging because he isn't learning to do things on his own. He needs to become more independent.
We went up the hill to my sister's place last Sunday and the kids went swimming in the creek. We visited for awhile and then I headed home. We weren't there very long. It was a wasted trip in my opinion. I just want Christian to see his cousins as much as he can since he doesn't have too long to go before he leaves.
We are going to my dad's tomorrow, Sunday. They got the pool finished, so the kids can swim. We will just visit. I hate staying there for long periods of time though. A couple of hours is enough. My step-mom is kind of weird in my opinion. She loves my dad though, so I put up with her. My sisters also think she is weird. There is just something about her. Anyways, that's our plans for tomorrow.
I'm having fun on Fubar. It's a more fun social network. More adult oriented. People can be inappropriate though and you have to tell them that you aren't there for that. It gives me something to do. I've been bad about MDJ and DS. I haven't checked in as much as I should be. I've just been so frustrated with my car situation though and very busy at work. I hope I hear good news about my car.
Christian is asleep right now because he stayed up all night. He needs to get on a schedule though very soon because school will be starting before he knows it. I think he's having a good time here, but he doesn't know anyone so he gets bored staying home by himself. He has his games and the internet, but that can even get boring.
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