Yesterday would have been my anniversary if I'd stayed married. My ex-husband jokingly text me "Happy anniversary." Yeah, real funny buddy! He's done that a lot over the years. I've always forgotten what day we got married up until he reminds me. I have a hard time remembering things in the past. Especially my childhood. I don't know why either.
Today was a busy day with school. I can't believe it's already Thursday. The week has flown by so quickly. I had to get an assignment turned in by today, so I did that online. It seemed to take forever. I also had to do my daily discussion and participation questions. I have something due tomorrow that I will be working on for awhile also, so it will be a busy school day for me then also. I seem to be getting more homework every week.
I only left the flat once to get a coffee. I spent all day pretty much concentrating and I needed a break. It was hot outside. 89 degrees, but better than yesterday. The days are going to start getting hotter and hotter. There goes my electric bill. It's going to get higher and higher due to the air conditioner. I bought those two fans though and it's helping to cool it down and not have to run the air so low. I leave it at 80 degrees and I'm comfortable with the fans going. It should help me cut down on the electricity I think. I guess I will see when I get the bills this summer.
It's going to be weird not having my son this summer. He's going to visit his girlfriend in Texas. I can't really afford having him here though anyway since I'm on unemployment. I have a hard time by myself. I hope he enjoys himself while he is there. I'm pretty sure he will. I trust him to make the right decisions. He's a pretty good kid. It will be good for him to get away from his dad too. He really doesn't care for him all that much.
I vacuumed the living room yesterday and tried out my new little green machine. I think it worked okay, but I'm going to go over it again. There are still some spots there. It was a pretty dark stain though to begin with. I have a lot of spots to get. Things get spilled, that happens. Nothing really you can do but spot clean them after it's all done.
MDJ is busy lately. I've found that there are a lot of discussions left with no responses on them until I get to them. It shouldn't be like that. Everyone is important there and someone should respond to the discussion. I feel overwhelmed sometimes with it all and finding an empty discussion. I try and I get a lot done. I get proud of myself for keeping up. I put a lot of time and effort into that support group. I believe in it. I really do enjoy being there.
I haven't been on Fu for quite some time. I just haven't even thought about it really. I guess I got burnt out on it. It was taking up a lot of time in my opinion. I'll probably go back every now and then. I have made some friends on there that I want to keep in touch with. I'm just not as interested in it lately. I've been busy with school and MDJ also.
My mood has been pretty good. I just hope I can stay on my medications that I have since I'm stable. I have a feeling that the Viibryd isn't going to be given to me though and that is the only antidepressant that has worked for me. I have to take double the dose also. I think I will probably have to try something else that I haven't tried yet. This is going to hopefully not affect my stability. I don't want to have symptoms again. I hate that feeling.
My psychiatrist's office lady called me yesterday to cancel the appointment because he isn't back at work yet. He had a hip replacement and he is still recovering I guess. I don't see him until the 13th of June. I hope my medications last till then. I'm going to be out of my Dexedrine soon and I can't get anymore unless I pay the $300 it costs. I can't afford that. I'm going to have to go without it. This means I'm going to be really tired. I hope I can function. I haven't been without it for two years. It's scary when my medications get messed with. I don't like it one bit.
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