It's after midnight, so I'm titling this the 31st. I've been really, really tired. It's because I don't have my Dexedrine. It helps me stay awake, focus, and concentrate. Now I'm dead to the world for 13 hours a night and even take a nap in the afternoon. It's so frustrating for me.
Today was an okay day. I just was on the internet and talked to one of my sisters for awhile. I did schoolwork of course, but I had to make myself. Lately I haven't had the drive I did when I was on Dexedrine. I don't see why these medications have to cost so much. We need them, they should be cheaper.
I talked to B by text today. He says he wants to try online dating to find a chick that is into gaming like he is and asked if I knew of any. This is after I had to ask him if we were broken up and he said "I guess." Rude in my opinion to ask me what dating sites I know of. Hurt my feelings. I guess I've just never been good enough for him in all these 12 years on and off. I think I'll be alone for a very long time. I'm not wanting my heart to get trampled on anytime soon.
My friend of 23 years old was supposed to come and hang out and watch a movie with me, but he stood me up. This is the second time he's done this. It's aggravating when people do that. Didn't even get a call. Bullshit. I'm not going to count on him for much anymore. Friends don't do that to friends. Must not be a very good one huh?
Tomorrow/today I will probably sleep late since it's after midnight and then do some schoolwork, I'll have to make myself, and be on the internet. I don't have any plans that I know of. Never really do as you all probably know by now. I live a very boring life, but I like it. I don't have to deal with any drama, so that is good. I don't care for drama.
I've been trying to keep up with MDJ. I just haven't been feeling like doing anything lately. I always enjoy MDJ. It's weird that I haven't been able to get into it. I have been answering my PMs though, so at least I'm doing that. I need to post more on discussions. I've been slacking on those. I'm pretty much caught up now.
I think I'm off to bed soon. Will write later on.
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