3/29/11

Woke up at 7:00 today and got to work at 7:50. At least I got there before 8:00. It wasn’t too bad of a day. It was a normal day. Didn’t go by too fast or too slow. Emily still hasn’t taken any of my work away from me. I wonder what’s up with that. I thought once she came back, things would be easier on me. It doesn’t look that way though. I’m still stuck doing the same old work that is too much for one person. I will have to say something to someone about it. I’ll just have to work lots of overtime. I don’t mind doing that one bit.

Since Dr. O upped my Lamictal to 400mg I feel a little bit better. Not a lot though. Just a little. I need to feel even more better. Didn’t take a shower this morning. Not enough time to. Didn’t feel like it either. I’ve got to though tomorrow. I’ve decided I’m going to switch my Abilify to taking it at night instead of in the morning to see if that makes it easier to wake up in the morning. I hope that helps a little bit.

I still think I’m going to need another medication or have my Lexapro upped though when I see Dr. O on the 5th of April. Today I felt still depressed, just not as much as I was, so it is helping a little bit. Lamictal is a great drug. It really helps with depression as a mood stabilizer. At first I didn’t think it was doing anything, but it obviously is since I got depressed when Dr. O was weaning me off of it.

My high school friend Sasha got a hold of me this evening and wanted to do something soon. We agreed on coffee next weekend. That way we can get together and talk about our lives and just see each other. We haven’t seen each other in a long time. We used to be roommates in 2000-2003. We got along perfectly and it was nice. I don’t think I could have another roommate though now. I like my privacy and living alone.

I sent off a bunch of checks yesterday for bills. Now my checking account is getting low. Tomorrow I’m going to pay $120.00 worth of prescriptions when I go to pick them up. That’s not even all of my prescriptions. I have another $30.00 in prescriptions I get near the first of the month. It’s expensive having bipolar disorder.

I owe a lot of money to a lot of medical facilities. Just to get my labs done at the beginning of the year was over $600.00. I’m making payments on that. I have hospital bills. I have just a lot of medical bills on top of my prescriptions. It’s quite discouraging. I make good money in my opinion, well, more than I’ve ever made, but I can’t seem to get ahead. I’m always one step behind. One good thing though is my car will be paid off in two months. I will take most of the would be payment though and put in savings for repairs to the car because I’m sure I will have those since it’s older and has a lot of miles on it.