3/30/11

I didn’t make it in to work till almost 11:00 today. I woke up at 7:45 and knew I’d be late, so I called work and told them I wasn’t feeling well and I’d be in a little bit later. I slept till 10:00 then got in the shower and got ready to go. What in the hell is wrong with me? Why can’t I get up in the morning? It’s driving me mad with rushing to get ready because I wake up so late and just not having the motivation to get my ass up.

I didn’t take my Abilify this morning. I’m taking it this evening to see if I can wake up easier in the morning. I hope it helps a little bit. It’s worth a try at least. I’m feeling a little bit better with taking 400mg of Lamictal a day, but I’m still having that low grade depression that won’t go away. I will probably require another medication to be added or more Lexapro. My psychiatrist says he has some ideas if the upped Lamictal doesn’t take it away. I’ll see on the 5th when I see him again.

Work was work. I should have gotten more done than I did. Emily is back and I talked to her. She wants me to carry on like I have been, then next week we will talk about who is going to do what. I guess she is swamped with formula stuff. Tomorrow I have the truck drivers payroll entries, so I’m going to be tied up for tomorrow and Friday with that. We run statements I think on Monday. I’m going to have to hurry up and do a lot in that time. Hopefully I finish early on Friday and can get some of the other work done.

Angel, my sister that lives an hour away just sent me a text wanting me to come up this weekend. My other sister Julie is having trouble with Powerpoint and needs my help. I can’t really remember that much from when I took my administrative course, but I’ll try to help her if I go up there. Probably Sunday because she gets off work at 2:00. I don’t know when she gets off on Saturday.

I haven’t heard from Michael. I need to go to one of his shows soon if he is having any. I used to go to all of them. I just have been depressed and I’ve gained about 15 pounds. I don’t want to see anyone. I really need to start doing my Pilates again. I can lose weight doing that kind of exercise. I’ve got to do something to get this weight off. So, I think I might really try to go to Michael’s next show.

I think I’ve caught up on MDJ. That’s like my second home. I love that website. Everyone is so nice and supportive. I love helping people. It makes me feel good. I know I need to catch up on DS. DS isn’t that great. The people that I’m friends with are and I try my hardest to keep up with their journals. I get behind a lot though. I still try to support everyone I can. I always eventually catch up.

I’m looking forward to spending some time with my old roommate and friend from high school Sasha. We plan on having coffee next weekend. I haven’t seen her in so many months. We are always there for each other if we need one another though. We are true friends. We can count on each other. It’s nice to have a friend like that.

I really hope that taking Abilify at night will help me wake up easier in the mornings. I’ve got to do something. Maybe I’ll take a Rozerem, sleeping pill tonight so I can get some good quality sleep. I never get into a deep sleep if I don’t take it. I need to take it more than I do. This way I get more rested.