3/3/11

Got to work and dived into PN transport. Payroll entry day plus enter orders of course. That's a given everyday. I'm not entering any billing because I have the payroll entries. They take so long. I'm not feeling it today. It's going by so slowly and taking forever to get these entries in. I don't think I will finish them today. I will probably have to do some tomorrow.

I actually ate a calazone today. I usually don't eat at work. It was okay. Didn't eat the whole thing because I get full quickly. But, it was odd that I got hungry. Maybe my sugar was low. I do have that problem. Finally made it through the day and I got 5 drivers done out of 11. Not very good productivity in my opinion. Just couldn't do it though. Something isn't right with me lately.

Went to the grocery store after work and stocked up on water, tea, and cereal. Still need to go to Savemart and get some milk. I won't buy milk at Foodmaxx because it goes bad quickly or it's bad when you buy it. It smells bad. So, I go to a better grocery store to get that. Came home and logged on computer. Called Nat and talked to her for awhile. My new friend called me too. The one I met on MDJ. She wanted to discuss her happenings on MDJ with people. I was waiting for Nat to call me back, so I didn't talk long.

Nat never called me back, no biggie, but I hate waiting around for people. I was tired though by 8:00 and I laid down and fell asleep. I've been doing that a lot lately and I still can't wake up early. I sleep too much. I'm seeing Dr. O, my psychiatrist on Wednesday of next week, so I have a lot of things I want to bring up with him. I've been losing interest in work and in MDJ. I've been sleeping too much and eating too much. I have no motivation. I think I'm depressed. I don't know if it's from the Lamictal. Maybe because that's all I've gone off of. I don't want to have to go back on it though because I save money not being on it. I don't have to pay for the prescription. Maybe I can just up my Lexapro. This I'm all going to talk with Dr. O about.

I don't want to be depressed. It's an ugly feeling. I've been good for so long. I've been stable and I don't want the stability to end. It might just be that I need to be on Lamictal. After all, it is a mood stabilizer, but we will see how that pans out. Abilify can act as a mood stabilizer too I believe. I just want to be stable again. Better than stable really.