Yesterday was a hard day. I was tired because I stayed up all night. I got a bunch of billing done though. I floated through the day working on some of my old stuff and getting more billing ready for today. I ended up leaving at 4:20. I did get to work at 6:20 though, so it was early when I got there. I came home yesterday and I turned on the computer and sat down to MDJ and posted a few replies, but I got too tired, so I laid down around 5:30 and I fell asleep.
This morning I woke up around 6:00 and got to work about 6:50. I jumped on billing. There was so much to bill. I also did some other stuff that I've been meaning to do. I actually got a lot done today. I still have much, much more to get done too. I'm so swamped at work it's ridiculous. I can't believe how much work I have each day.
Tomorrow I have my appointment with Dr. O, my psychiatrist and then I'm going into work from there. I am so glad that the appointment is tomorrow. I need to see him so badly. I am just depressed and it's no fun at all. I can't shake it, it's not going to go away unless I get my Lamictal back or we try something else like maybe double my Lexapro. I'm not sure what he's going to want to do. I will find that out then. I just know that I can't live this way. I need to have enjoyment in things. I haven't even enjoyed MDJ much in awhile and that is weird. Also my job. I usually enjoy my job. Not lately.
Mark, the molasses merchandiser will be gone Wednesday - Friday, so I'm in charge of all the orders and everything while he is gone. Just adds more work to my everyday challenge. I'm going to be even busier this rest of the week because of that. I guess I just better prepare myself for it. Nothing else I can do about it. I wonder what would happen if I called in? Who would do my orders? There isn't anyone that knows how to do my stuff. Mark, Emily, and I are the only ones. I guess I better not call in.
Came straight home today. I left at 4:30 today from work. I had had enough of that place by then. I will probably stay till 5:00 the rest of the week because Mark isn't going to be there. That way if anyone needs something in the molasses department, they have me. So, I won't be in at work until after 10:00 tomorrow probably. I figure after my appointment, I will get some gas and a coffee then head to work.
All I hope for is that this depression goes away. I want something to take to take it away. I know Dr. O can fix me up. He's a really good doctor and he actually listens to me when I make suggestions. I will look forward to seeing him tomorrow.
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